Today is the one-too-many time where you woke and turned on the bark of the morning news These smiling pay-for-viewing marionettes dictate protocols/suggest emotional responses with screaming red backgrounds/ shelf fears during commercial breaks /hammer at witnesses of a drowning world We are schooled for the umpteenth time about masks and given statistics. Those numbers glue us captive to people with anonymous lives and photos of coffins and graves of strangers we will never encounter with a smile on a sidewalk or a step-aside passing on a trail in the woods. Their souls weigh us down at night. Like this down-encased duvet, too warm for this smothering June. We feel their weight and cough their ashes from broken sleep which never found dreams of beach sand. The morning stifles. New Jersey humidity and buzzing mosquitos thicken the air. Commuters race to work. Cars slam short in stop and jolt to go. We are all adrenalized and angry. We are tears behind thoughts and pillars of salt from images thrust through lenses and magnified on screens blue into sleepless nights. Our shadows are cast ghosts of viruses and those neighbors we never knew. We hold survivor’s guilt and terror in blistered hands - jingle belled to bleeding. Scabbed, but open Please, I whisper, turn it off.