no sentimental favorites no assigned seat or “felt need” no inclusionary experience just isolation in rows and circles of black shirts and black feelings and black ink on paper doodles or arms backs that display despair or frustration holes that eat at the soul – filled with metal rings – filled with gun shot. no quiet sanctuary no enlightened words or stimulating ideas to ponder no lasting memories just calculation of hate or indifference with white fear and white rage and white heat from cold hearts or guns minds that distort value and merit agony that bleeds with no end – devoid of soul devoid of meaning